Never Easy To Say Goodbye To A Loved One

On December 2nd of this year, I got a phone call from my Uncle that my grandma passed away early that morning. I knew a few days ago that she was terminally ill with Lymphoma Cancer. The doctors said that she had a few hours to a few days to live, but I never thought she would have left this world so soon! Today they are going to have a small service at the Laffeyette Cemetary and then a wake at my Uncles house in Paso Robes. I'm still both shock and very crushed.
She was the healthiest woman that I have known. She would always get up at 5am and walk 5 miles around her neighborhood, ate healthy, worked out in the pool and so much more! I miss her so much and it really sucks that I can't be in the states to be with family and to visit her gravesite. She was a very strong and beautiful woman and has overcome many things in her life. She's a survivor of the Hiroshima bombings and I will never forget the stories she would tell me about how she survivied.
She even overcame a heart attack that she had when she was 25 that actually did kill her, but was able to revive her. I know my grandpa is taking the loss really hard. He loved her so much even through the worst of times. I hope he doesn't relapse and go back to drinking heavily andtry to kill himself from drinking too much. I do know that he will probably be the next to go since his soulmate is no longer with him, dying of a broken heart.
This will be my first actually crappy Christmas this year. The only thing good that will be coming out of this Christmas is celebrating Sarah's first Christmas. She never got to meet her great grandma, but I show her her picture everyday. My grandma got to see pictures of Sarah that I would send to her or ones that my cousin would print out from myspace. I will never forget my grandma and will always remember everything that we did together forever!!
I know my mom and Uncle are taking it really hard as well and it will take a long time for the pain to subside. My family and I should be coming back to Cali for June and July and durring our time there, my mom and I will plan a trip to pay our respects to grandma. I'm going to try and take things one day at a time and keep remembering that she's with God and the rest of her family living in peace and harmony. I made sure that grandpa told her that I loved her very much two days before she passed away. I'm going to go cry a little more now. :(