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Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Might Be Time To Let Go

I have so much stuff racing through my head right now that it's not even funny. But I do have one thing on my mind that keeps repeating over and over in my head. I guess it's because I just have a problem with one of my friends and the many choices she has made over her life. I know it's not my place to say or to tell her how she should live her life, but it just irks me and confuses me is all. I know that if she reads this, she will get mad and all, but this is my blog and I can do what I want with it without using her name and have it be tarnished.
Now it might just be me or other people might have noticed, but she has a tendancy to go from one extreme to another. She is also someone who always has some sort of drama happening in her life which is always for the worse. I have actually never been around someone who has THAT much drama in their life since I try to stay away from it and the people that bring it. But sometimes it does come my way. Anyway, I'm a little peeved at her for a few reasons with the big one being that she is living at my parents place and owes them $900 for rent which they are still waiting for.
She was paying them with some of her disability money that was coming in but in stepped drama and the medical people decided to expire her disability. So she had to go and re-do the paperwork and is now in the process of waiting for it to go into effect. She has classes out in Antioch and has to take the bus out there, but I guess the buss that goes to the school is out in Martinez so my mom has to get up and drive her down there even when my mom doesn't feel like it, but does anyway. My mom got mad at her one day because She didn't bother to look online to see if the busses were running since it was veteran's day or something like that and had my mom drive out there only to turn around and come back home making my mom real late to work so that's why she wasn't very pleased. She also hasn't really tried to help out around the house with chorse and whatnot which she should since my parents are letting her live there and should be grateful to having a place to stay at.
My dad gets grossed out by how she cleans her dishes which in both my parents terms are crappy because there are still food particles stuck to them so they will turn around and re-wash them. My dad got mad because of how messy she has turned my room into and I guess he has told her nicely to try and tidy it up. My parents have already told me that my room will always be my room so that whenever my family and I come to visit, we will have my room. Anyway, I am sorry that this has turned more into a rant than anything else, but it's just something that needs to get off of my chest. Also, I am sorry if I sound cold hearted.
Anyway, my parents and brother are getting real close to telling her to go find a new place to live if she doesn't pay them when her disability comes in since the economy is in poor state and my dad's work is in the slow season with him being a wallpaper and painter contractor. My brother doesn't really care for her and got real mad at when she told him that she would be taking over my place while I'm gone. My brother told my mom F that and that no one could ever replace me and that it would be EONS for him to ever think of her as a sister. The thing that got me peeved at her was when I was on yahoo IM talking to a guy friend of mine ( whom I talk to every know and then) and was telling him about me going to see a new doctor yesterday. I was referred to this doctor to take some tests to see if I am bi-polar and if I am, then what type of bi-polar.
Anyway, when I brought up the issue with my friend that they can't tell if I am bi-polar 1 or 2 he said that he already knew because she had told him! Now whe nI tell a friend or family member about something priavet like that, I don't expect them to go an tell other people even if they are my friends because it's not their place to do so. So I asked when when the last time he talked to her since they have been on and off as firends and he said back when I was still living in Cali when I was still dating Ryan and the 3 of us hung out together. So I of course was not happy that I have a friends of mine telling someone that I am bi-polar when it has never been brought up in my history at all and I have never said anything about it. I didn't even know that I could be Bi-polar until a few days ago when my regular doctor referred me to this new doc!
I really don't appreciate someone saying that at all and even when I do confront her later today, Cali time since I'm nine hours ahead of everyone for the momment, I know she will more than likely act like she has no idea what I am talking about. So I will just have to watch what I say around her and remind my mom not to say certain things around her when it comes to my health. She also will get me a little mad when it comes to my family. Yeah there are times when my husband does things that irritate me with the little things he does or doesn't do with my daughter and I, but I don't need someone telling me "I told you so" or how to do certain things because everyone is different. If I do complain about my husband or daughter, it's more of me venting and just talking about how my day went.
Never asked someone to give me their two cents. The only advice that I will take is from my parent's, my in-laws, doctors and other people who know what the hell they are talking about. I know my life isn't perfect, but her's is FAR from being perfect and needs to focus on her family and compleating school before she can preach to others. (Going to sound like a cold hearted bitch right now) But at least I have a roof over my head, have a wonderful husband that can provide for our daughter and I, we are able to pay our bills, have a car to get us to where we need to go and know what the hell we want in out lives!! Our marriage might not be perfect and we do have our momments when it comes to fights and I am not saying that I am the Harriet Osman of our times, but we do with what we got and are HAPPY!!
So I think I am getting to that point in some people lives where we need to not be friends anymore or not deal with each other for awhile.

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