For Once In My Life

For once in my life, I feel like everything is in place and the puzzle compleate. I couldn't be more happier or at peace than right now. I'm finally taking charge of my life for the better and focusing a lil more on me instead of giving my all to everyone and trying to please them and make sure they are happy aside from Ryan and Sarah. My marriage to Ryan has never been better or stronger especially with help from a councilor who helped us be better at communicating with eachother. Seeing that councilor was the best thing we could have done and I highly recommend it to anyone in a relationship.
I know we will hit a few bumps in the road, but I know we can get through anything! Two months before we celebrate our 3rd Anniversary! I love him with all of my heart and am very lucky to have him in my life. He's the best thing that could ever happen to me and being with him has openend my eyes about the kind of person I am and can be including overcoming stuff from my past and the bad qualities I have been trying to work on. Ryan truely loves me for me and has been supportive with all of my decisions and helped me through difficults times especially with my health.
We've finally connected on a different level as husband and wife. He's a really great father who adores Sarah with all of his heart. Yes, it's hard for both of us with him being gone long hours at work and not really spending time with us, but we have learned to cherish the momments we do share even if it's for an hour or two. I have finally gotten over my insecurities and if they do decide to creep back up, I know how to handle them in a good way. I'm being more active as a housewife though I do plan on working again as a massage therapist once we come back to the states.
I know I'm a great mother and always make sure that Sarah is very well taken care of. I've made my goal on wanting to lose weight and so far have been doing a really good job at it! I'm also learning to not take a lot of things so seriously and that it's ok to laugh at stupid stuff and being silly. I used to be silly all the time, but after being with my last ex who didn't approve of me being me, I stopped and started acting more serious. I stand by my husband and will defend him against anyone who says crap about him that I find wrong.
I am finally getting back to being the old me and taking charge of my life. I feel like I can get through anything that life could throw at me because I know I am a strong woman. It just took me a while to re-find myself again. I don't plan on ever going back to the old self that was living in a nutshell of uncertanties and thinking about how other people view me and how I act. If they don't like the way I look then they can look somewhere else. If they don't like the way I act then they can go hang out with other people.
I know that not everyone is going to like me or want to be my friend, but that is their choice and I am fine with that.